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First I was afraid

I was petrified

Kept thinking I could never live

without you by my side

But I spent so many nights

thinking how you did me wrong

I grew strong

I learned how to carry on

and so you're back

from outer space

I just walked in to find you here

with that sad look upon your face

I should have changed my stupid lock

I should have made you leave your key

If I had known for just one second

you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door

just turn around now

'cause you're not welcome anymore

weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye

you think I'd crumble

you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I

I will survive

as long as i know how to love

I know I will stay alive

I've got all my life to live

I've got all my love to give

and I'll survive

I will survive

It took all the strength I had

not to fall apart

kept trying hard to mend

the pieces of my broken heart

and I spent oh so many nights

just feeling sorry for myself

I used to cry

Now I hold my head up high

and you see me

somebody new

I'm not that chained up little person

still in love with you

and so you felt like dropping in

and just expect me to be free

now I'm saving all my loving

for someone who's loving me

And ALso Crazy -- By Patsy Cline

CRAZY

Patsy Cline

Crazy, I'm crazy for feelin' so lonely,

I'm crazy, crazy for feelin' so blue......

I knew, you'd love me as long as you wanted,

And then someday, you'd leave me for somebody new.

Worry, why do I let myself worry?

Wonderin', what in the world did I do?

Oh, crazy, for thinkin' that my love could hold you.....

I'm crazy for tryin' and crazy for cryin

And I'm crazy for lovin' you.

Crazy, for thinkin' that my love could hold you,

I'm crazy for tryin, and crazy for cryin

And I'm crazy for lovin' you.....

There are many songs that mean a lot to me, but one that comes to mind is The Dance because it's what my daddy played when he sat me down and told me that he was dying. Everytime I hear that song, I just ball.

I remember being a little disappointed that turning 13 should feel so underwhelming and then I experienced what felt like a very surreal moment when I turned on the radio set to a Top 40 station. The first song I heard after a commercial break was "Birthday" from the Beatles' White Album! Da-da-da-da dada daDAH-- "You say it's your birthday / It's my birthday, too, yeah!"

It was the first time I ever heard the song and I recognized Paul McCartney as the singer so I assumed it was a Beatles song, but I remember feeling undeservedly impressed that the Beatles somehow knew I have having my 13th birthday. Yeah, I was quiet as a youth with something of an ego I guess, heh heh heh. But it definitely felt surreal.

"You always keep me guessin', I never seem to know what you are thinkin'.

And if a fella looks at you, it's for sure your little eye will be a-winkin'.

I get confused, 'cause I don't know where I stand,

And then you smile, and hold my hand.

Love is kinda crazy with a spooky little girl like you.

Spooky!"

Which were appropriate lyrics to me because it was the first time I noticed girls and one in particular. I couldn't tell if she liked me or hated me, so that 'love is kinda crazy' seemed really meaningful.

All I ever wanted was some love and peace and harmony

I could dance in the raw in the sun underneath the stars

When I walk over to my money tree ain't nobody there

trying to take from me

When they ask "Are you truly free?" I'd say "Yes, truly"

But down here in reality everybody knows there ain't no such thing

And it's clear

It's obviously this is not the place I'm supposed to be

On and on and on I've searched

What I'm lookin for is not here on earth

I can't stand I can't take no more

So I know that I gotta go

So long everybody

Mama don't be sad for me

Life was a heartache and now I am finally free

Don't know where I'm headed

Hope I see you someday soon

So long everybody

I have gone beyond the moon

All I ever wanted, love and the peace and the harmony

Just to be to live and shine

When I get ready I up and fly

And I can't remember none of the things that I want to forget

It's the best - satisfaction no less

Ask if I'm free and I'll say "Oh yes"

But down here in reality everybody knows there ain't no such thing

And it's clear

It's obviously this is not the place I'm supposed to be

On and on and on I've searched

What I'm lookin for is not here on earth

I can't stand I can't take no more

So I know that I gotta go

So long everybody

Mama don't be sad for me

Life was a heartache and now I am finally free

Don't know where I'm headed

Hope I see you someday soon

So long everybody

I have gone beyond the moon

Before I do

Just one more look at you

It's worth the stay

But I'll meet you later at that better place

All I ever wanted was

All I ever wanted was

All I ever wanted was

So long everybody

Mama don't be sad for me

Life was a heartache and now I am finally free

Don't know where I'm headed

Hope I see you someday soon

So long everybody

I have gone beyond the moon

My dad use to listen to these and a few others when I was very young every time I hear these songs I think of him. He passed away a month before my 8th birthday,. They comfort me and make me think of better times, I was such a daddy's girl.I miss him.

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

Green Eyed Woman music does it for me probably the same as you described, the lyrics are sort of stupid but the intrumental part is awesome. Makes me wanna get up and dance

The more you open yourself up to something the more it will hurt.

The pain of loss is a sadly beautiful thing. It's a screaming testament to why we stay here, a direct measure of meaning in life.

Without it life has no meaning. So as I hurt I smile, for the more it hurts the more beautiful it was and remains in my heart.

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If Cyrano de Bergerac

Fell prey to the blades of fifty men

With a heart and a sword he'd drive them back

Perchance to see Roxanne's eyes light up the sky again

And when beauty kind and full of grace

Again denied the beast her hand

The beast he turned and hid his face

And tried with all his might and magic to understand

.

And once upon a time

You know I used to wonder why

You know no one should need to cry

In pain of a heart forbade to fly

But you learn to say goodbye

As you whisper beneath a sigh

.

Sweet pain

Can't you plainly see?

Sweet pain

You know it matters to me

Sweet pain

Won't you make me feel at home?

Sweet pain

Don't you dare leave me alone

.

Sometimes a life that seems hard to take

Is soothed for a while by an old friend

Leaving a bad need in its wake

Sad how, some friendships never ever seem to end

Well all of my heroes up and died

Songs and a dream are left for me

What did them in, not suicide

Just a lengthy friendship and a dream of how it could be

.

And isn't it a crime?

Was it more than they could bear?

You know they did not even care

At all and they might have something there

But I'm here and I don't see where

All I hear is their silent prayer

.

Sweet pain

Is it so terribly wrong?

Sweet pain

To want to come along

Sweet pain

Won't you make me smile?

Sweet pain

If only for a while

.

Can you feel what I feel?

So we can establish that the pain is real

Don't be afraid and I'll do the same for you

And we'll just hang on and we'll make it, make it through

There's got to be a reason it works out this way

And there's something deep inside me

That makes me have to play

For you

For you

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In no position to give advice

My heart it spoke and I wrote it down

And you know every wisdom has its price

My head up in the stars

And my feet planted firmly on the ground

When will I embrace this life I see?

I've been wondering for so long

Thinking back, the truth may be

I've been unaware but I've been living it all along

.

And it didn't cost a dime

And it did not come for free

It just would not let me be

But it never conquered me

Just a doorway and a key

And I think that we both agree

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Sweet pain

Is sometimes what you need

Sweet pain

It allows the blood to bleed

Sweet pain

From the moment of your birth

Sweet pain

You know it keeps you here on Earth

O the souvenirs

I was standing in the queue in Hillbrow, Fontana bakery. It was a song about pollution and the environment and this line just said it all.

"And the river ran with poison/

so the steel mills could survive"

"Cars", whatever happened to the good old days of New Wave music and Gary Newman?

"Dead Man's Party", Danny Elfman and Oingo Boingo, when they still did Ska.

And of course "Smuggler's blues" from Miami Vice.

"Stingray", rare instrumental by the mighty Shadows.

I unfortunately lost 4 friends at once in a car wreck. My two best friends parents had a double funeral for 2 of them and that song was played. It will always remind me of the 4. I can be anywhere and hear that song and the eyes still water up.

Around that time, my folks and I attended a large family reunion in Calgary where I met a lot of relatives I didn't even know existed in a large hall or convention area rented for the occasion. I met some kids around my age and we found a jukebox while exploring the hall after a large lunch. While the parents and older folks were catching up with one another, one of my newly-met cousins wondered aloud if the jukebox worked and asked me for a dime or nickel (or however much it cost to play a song in those days). All I had was a quarter, so he plugged it in, punched in numerous selections, and the next thing I know, playing as loud as a Deep Purple concert was, "DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAD...".

My cousins of course had the sense to scatter but not me, nope, there I am looking as guilty as sin at the jukebox while everyone else goes deaf from this song playing. I think I'm still a little sunburnt from the look that my mom gave me. What was worse, I think a quarter let you play a couple of songs and damned if that stupid tune didn't play at least three times. I remember standing outside praying, oh lord, please make this song stop! Oh yeah, I remember that look from Mom very well, heh heh...

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

I smile whenever I hear the song because it reminds me of someone, as if it were written for her.

"I recall once upon a time,

Livin was so easy and I felt so fine.

But, my, my, my right before my very eyes,

Satan came with fire to burn me,

Wouldnt listen when they warned me.

A dagger in my back while shes calling me honey,

Wouldnt stand back, for neither love nor money.

Thirty minutes after my ship set sail,

She put up a sign and my house began to wail.

But, why, why, why I couldnt see it in my little girls eyes?

She had such a way to fool me, lord she had a way to fool me.

And I would ask the woman, can you find it in yourself to please stand back?

You aint gonna rule me.

Just when all began to fade,

I reached out, threw the ace of spades.

I put her on a train to the everglades.

Now that its all over and gone,

Somehow I just dont feel so alone.

But, lie, lie, lie it seemed like such a waste of time.

She did not ever seem to know me,

But, now its much too late to show me.

But, if I ever see that woman walkin down the street Ill just stand back,

And try to move away slowly."

the dance by Garth Brooks, lost my grand dad in 98 and lost my dad back in november. still have a hard time especially after loosing my dad. wish he coulda seen his new grand daughter.

Its youre love by Tim and Faith, gonna be me and my ladys wedding song.

Cowboy in me by Tim McGraw, for me.

Mother by pink Floyd for my mom

The Hollies

If I could make a wish

I think I'd pass

can't think of anything i need....

no cigarettes, no sleep, no light, no sound

nothing to eat, no books to read

making love with you

has left me peaceful, warm and tired

what more could I ask

there's nothing left, to be desired

peace came upon me and it leaves me weak

so sleep, silent angel

go to sleep........

Sometimes

all I need is the air that I breathe

and to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

just to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe.......

Peace came upon me

and it leaves me weak

so sleep silent angel

go to sleep.......

Sometimes

all I need is the air that I breathe

and to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

yes to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

just to love you.......

THE AIR THAT I BREATHE

The Hollies

If I could make a wish

I think I'd pass

can't think of anything i need....

no cigarettes, no sleep, no light, no sound

nothing to eat, no books to read

making love with you

has left me peaceful, warm and tired

what more could I ask

there's nothing left, to be desired

peace came upon me and it leaves me weak

so sleep, silent angel

go to sleep........

Sometimes

all I need is the air that I breathe

and to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

just to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe.......

Peace came upon me

and it leaves me weak

so sleep silent angel

go to sleep.......

Sometimes

all I need is the air that I breathe

and to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

yes to love you

all I need is the air that I breathe

just to love you.......

((JUST WONDERING ))

"Closer"

Wonderful Everclear

I close my eyes when I get too sad

I think thoughts that I know are bad

Close my eyes and I count to ten

Hope its over when I open them

I want the things that I had before

Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door

I wish I could count to ten

Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad

Will figure out why they get so mad

Hear them scream, I hear them fight

They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed

And I dream of angels who make me smile

I feel better when I hear them say

Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little

And the worlds so big

I just don't understand how

You can smile with all those tears in your eyes

Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play

I tell the kids that its all okay

I laugh aloud so my friends wont know

When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes

I make believe that I have a new life

I don't believe you when you say

Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little

And the world is so big

I just don't understand how

You can smile with all those tears in your eyes

When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No

No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

No

No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say

That I will understand someday

No, no, no, no

I don't wanna hear you say

You both have grown in a different way

No, no, no, no

I don't wanna meet your friends

And I don't wanna start over again

I just want my life to be the same

Just like it used to be

Some days I hate everything

I hate everything

Everyone and everything

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

"....I don't want to forget that the present is a gift and I don't want to take forgranted the time you may have here with me. 'Cause Lord only knows that another day here isn't guaranteed. So every time you hold me, hold me like this is the last time. Every time you kiss me, kiss me like you'll never kiss me again. Every time you touch me, touch me like this is the last time. Promise that you'll love me, love me like you'll never see me again..."

-A Pocket Full Of Sunshine-

I dedicate to my "awesomely happy, positive thinking & always so friendly " coworkers **ahem** (NOT)... lmao I gotta say, not all of them are like that, but just a couple in the bunch can turn the whole group sour. The group who's working for the summer program this year (including myself), will be a much positive and team player group. I can hardly wait. Fun Fun

I AM SO ready for the end of this school year, though. 9 more days to go, oh Yeaaahh!! **does the Kool-Aid crash through the school yard** LOL

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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

Far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with you

Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

'Cause I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah

I don't wanna miss a thing

There are places I'll remember

All my life though some have changed

Some forever not for better

Some have gone and some remain

All these places have their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new

Though I know I'll never lose affection

For people and things that went before

I know I'll often stop and think about them

In my life I love you more

"Good night Mrs. Calabash.... wherever you are!"

-More than Words -EXTREME

-Coffee and Cigarettes-Michelle Featherstone

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THE NOTORIOUS CHERRY BOMBS

Complimentary "The Notorious Cherry Bombs" Ringtone

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long

She used to call me baby... I thought she was such a lady

But my how things have changed since times moved on

I gave her my last dollar... And now all she'll do is holler

Oh my life has become a country song

I've learned she can resist me by the way she always disses me

And comes to bed at night, with that cold cream on

Sometimes I might feel frisky but these days it's just too risky

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long

All day Long

It goes all day long

If a tree fell in the forest, She didn't hear it, would I still be wrong

I guess I should admit it

She ain't never gonna quit it

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long

Spoken Voice:

Man I remember when her eyes used to be so blue and shiny

God you oughtta see what's happened to her hiney

(Her what?) her hiney

Man that thing is big enough to land a small plane on.

(Small plane?) I'm tellin' ya

I used to roll her in the the clover, (mmm hmm) but my god those days are over

(Hallelulia!)

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long

All day Long

She goes all day long

If some day they drop the big one,

I'd say sweet Jesus, She's gonna finally leave me alone

It's alright if we say it

'cause the radio won't play it.

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long

It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long